one year later...

Happy Birthday Ethan and Evan!  It is hard to believe that my babies are already one!  This has honestly been the fastest, longest year of my life.  I have found myself over the past 24 hours thinking about that day last year and the big moments over the past year.
I have been craving Panera's Bacon Turkey Bravo!  My first meal after they were born.
I thought about the first time Landan and Carson were with them and that Carson didn't go to sleep that night until after midnight.
I remembered a major meltdown I had about 10 days after they were born, fearing things would never be  what I thought "normal" was again.
I remembered our first outing as the six of us and how long it took us to get ready and how proud of us all I was.
I thought about how great it was when the big boys were able to tell the twins apart.
I remembered the first time Lucas kept all four boys alone.  I thought about how incredible it was that I was able to get out and great it felt that I had a hubby who could care for four small children.
I laugh at the looks, questions and comments I have gotten over the year.
I remember how I learned how to survive in my new "normal" and then to actually thrive in our new "normal"
I remember that day to Target just the five of us and how liberating it was to try it on my own.
I love thinking about Ethan and Evan learning to do new things it seems like everyday.  Growing into little men and changing all the time.

I can honestly say that my life has been eternally changed by these little men.  I am so grateful to God for giving me the opportunity to be their mom.  I pray all the time that I can be what He wants me to be for them to help them become more what He wants them to be and all that I believe they can be!